Will you do all these things, like we used to?

I can feel like these days were really the hardest-days for me. All kind of problems came to me in a sudden. It's from the little until the biggest one. I'm tired. Extremely tired. Feels like, it's harder for me to breathing. I can't find my home anymore. I lost my home. My real home. Everywhere looks strange, I can't really find my happiness.

And here I am, crying over the night for almost everyday. Crying for what? Only me and God know. I just can't tell this to anyone. It sucks, really. It's like a tons of question flooding my mind: why God? why this this happenned to me? Why should be me? I'm not strong enough! I'm weak! I'M WEAK! Oh my God..I can't hold my tears :'(

So, have you ever felt like..you regret everything that happenned to you and you want to go back to the past and change every possibilities? I felt it. If only I could, I just want to back to the time when we were still together in this little place that I called heaven, and enjoy every second of that. I really miss when we used to...

I'm currently listening to A Rocket to the Moon's like we used to, and the tittle definetely represents how I feel right now. The lyrics? Yeah, I feel it too, it's about less two years ago. When my boyf were still with his ex. He he.

Everybody has a memories, even the good or bad one. Some people have a memories with the one they love, and other were with the one they hate. Some of them want to go back like they used to be, and some other never want. I'm on the firts people, I wanna back like I used to be... back to a month ago... when happiness were still with me, when I were still can laugh passionately, when I were still in my 'home'.

So, what should I do now? Pray and be strong, yeah, what else? I so believe that God has other plan that better for me. What God has planned was surely the best for me. I'm not a child anymore, I'm a teenager who's going to be an adult soon. God wants me to be a stronger girl. God knows I can do this, that's why God let this happened to me. It's just about time, soon or later, I'll be the strongest girl ever. And thanks for those who always support me all the time, especially my boyf and my bests, I do love y'll so much *bighug* :')

...Will she love you like I loved you? Will she tell you everyday? Will she make you feel like you're invincible with every word she'll say? Will you do all these things, like we used to?